People, you may think that this is one of your typical alpha delicious KA male, but you seriously have something coming if you think that's all it is. I'm talking SOA type of characters, SOA type of dialogue, angst, drama, death and grief, so much fucking grief.
So buckle up and enjoy the ride, because it sure as hell going to bumpy as fuck!
Can I just start off by saying how much I absolutely love KA? Like I am in love with every single word that she spits out into writing, I fucking worship the ground she walks on and religiously memories the lines like it's a freaking Bible, or Torah, or the Quran, or whatever else people pray to these days.
You're the fucking shit, KA!
Ok, moving on from my state of religious worship, let's get down to all the gritty, sexy, angst stuff that KA will throw at us.
You know when the writing isn't the most perfectly structural thing in the world, or the grammar isn't all pretty and and words all fancy, yet you still ind beauty in the book? Yeah, that was me. That's how I found the book.
There wasn't a vast vocabulary or pretty descriptions of houses and tress and shit like that. There was descriptions of emotions, of pure raw feelings of Tab and of Shy. Dialogues that brought tears to my eyes and a tight lump to my throat. This is the kind of descriptions and writing I am talking about. It's not full of paragraphs that are indented or flowery. It's real, it's realistic, it's life. I loved it. It was beautiful, heartbreaking and so real.
“I dreamed a dream,”
“You’ll dream more dreams, baby.”
“I’ll never dream,”
It's just so sad and so miserable that it hits you. That Tab is dying on the inside, living day by say as if she's moving through the motions, not living, not existing, just surviving.
And then, Shy steps in. Shy who's had feelings for the this girl who he'd knows since she was 19 crying, breaking down, not being herself. He fixes her. Her gives her something to live by, to be strong, to let go, to forget. It's a beautiful journey of healing, of friendship, of falling in love. It's so utterly raw that you never doubt them, you never doubt their feelings or their intentions. Because they know that this is forever. This is something too beautiful to not take a chance on.
"I’d like to know why you dialed my number tonight, but if you don’t wanna share that shit, that’s cool too. I’ll just say, babe, I’m glad you did. You need a safe place just to forget shit and escape, I’ll give it to you. Tonight. Tomorrow. Next week. Next month. That safe place is me, Tabby. But I don’t want that old shit haunting this. Ghosts haunt until you get rid of them. Let’s get rid of that fuckin’ ghost and move on so I can beat your ass at pool.”
I don't know if I can explain their feelings, all I can say that you must read to feel at least an ounce of the turmoil they both go through. I think this book deals with grief and healing in a beautiful way. It teaches that being in pain is ok. That you have family, that you have support and crying and not wanting to do anything is also ok, as long as there is someone to hold your hand every step of the way. KA you're the shit, woman. you're the absolute shit.
“It was messed up, crazy, wrong.”
“It was wrong, Ty-Ty. It was… it was messed up. I forgot.”
“You forgot what, honey?”
Things happen, hence the emotional ride as mentioned in the banning. There is a lot of drama. There is always something that goes wrong that needs to be dealt with, and KA shows how they do it in a such a nonconventional way that it puts all the other MC books to shame. There are so many quotes I want to write out, to show you how beautiful this novel is but I know it just won't be enough to explain how much I love the book. You need to read it.“Everything, Ty-Ty. I was crying when I fell asleep and Shy was holding me, but somehow when we were sleeping he tucked me under him, tucked me close, and I woke up and all I felt was warm. Warm and safe and loved and right. That was all I felt. All I thought. All that went through my mind was how good all that felt.”
What I thoroughly enjoyed in this book is the emotional strength, stability and communication between the two leads. Yes Tab and Shy have tons of problems, yes they fight and bicker and are sometimes means an act not very sensible. But there isn't all that misunderstanding and miscommunication shit you see in other books. They see a problem, they talk it out, they deal with it, and then they have make up sex. It's raw, it's hard, but it's fucking awesome!"I was a part of an us and I was happy. Some motherfucker killed my parents and took that from me, so life forced me to become nothin’ but a me. Now I’m an us again, and that’s what I’ll be with my woman and the family we make until the day I fucking die.”
"So promise me, right now, my dick still inside you, you naked on top of me in my bed, us sharing what we just shared, us having a taste of what it’s like apart and knowin’ we’re better together, you won’t leave me. You won’t go in your head and take off no matter what. You stick with me until there’s nothing to stick to, if that ever happens.”
This is an absolute must read!"Shy Cage never dreamed a dream. Still, he knew, without a doubt since he was holding one in his arms, dreams were real."
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